I know I’ve been MIA over the past few weeks, but I am alive and well. This is my first full holiday season since the beginning of Green and Chic and it has me fully occupied. The business side of me knows its the end of the year while I catch up with my business bookkeeping and the web store holiday preparations, but the other side of me cant believe its already Thanksgiving time.
2009 went by in a flash. With all the major changes in life with the diagnoses, having to leave my job, losing my benefits, the pregnancy – and loss, and relocating, I guess its a good thing this year didn’t drag its feet.
I think the only way I’m going to look forward to 2010 and beyond is to have some short and long-term goals. Since the Multiple Sclerosis diagnosis, I’ve inadvertently put the breaks on setting goals (especially long-term) in my life though I don’t fully understand why. I guess fear have a lot to do with it. Fear of failure and disappointment if I don’t fulfill what I set out to do. Questions such as how can I travel next year if I’m looking at over $6,000 in out of pocket medical expenses for MS treatment not including my prescription drug co-payment. It also doesn’t include general well-woman care and the dental work I’m facing. I know it can be done. I know its a matter of remapping my life and thinking outside the invisible force field I put up.
The question is, how?
I think it’s really good you’re asking yourself these questions and are trying to look at the big picture. I’m sure you’ll come up with the answers, eventually.
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@Vered – Thank you so much!
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Carla:
It is always useful to reflect upon a past year…challenges, accomplishments, “mistakes”, lessons learned. If we don’t do that, our life can feel like it’s blowing around in the breeze like an old plastic bag. I think we can ALL learn to do a better job processing our experiences. Thanks for sharing your thoughts about your year of big changes!
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Carla
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November 26th, 2009 at 10:25 pm
@Scott – “ur life can feel like it’s blowing around in the breeze like an old plastic bag”. That is so true. I have felt like that at times!
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Hi Carla – I’m not surprised you’re glad this year is drawing to an end. And at least you’re asking yourself questions and giving yourself time to remap your life.
I hope you have a great year next year and come up with the cash you need to travel.
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Carla
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November 26th, 2009 at 10:25 pm
@Cath – Thank you so much!
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